Finally, Damn!

Boom! Here I finally am. I say finally in a way that's glad to be over a phase that seemed to last forever, but I also say it in a way where I'm playing because I know that everything happens in divine timing. All my life, I've known. I've always known that I was meant to be an artist. A mogul. I spent some parts of my life doubting it. I spent some parts ignoring it. I went through phases in my life where I finally believed it and accepted it, but I was still lost as fuck as to how to do it or where to start. After I got tired of seeking and searching within and around myself, I figured that I'd just go with the flow and see what came to me. Now THAT phase, was hard.

People are always so quick to say "follow your passions", but never speak on how to KNOW which passions to pursue. A lot of people preach this idea that you need to find one thing to master over your lifetime. Well, I have a lot of passions and choosing just one to focus on frankly doesn't make sense for me. I love to write. That includes writing songs, poems, stories, blogs, and articles. I also love pictures. I love taking them, directing photo shoots, modeling, making digital collages and printing them out for photo albums (which apparently people don't do anymore). Another passion of mine is visual art. I love everything from painting, to digital drawing, to makeup, and fashion. A lot of you know that I also have a passion for history, politics, and discourse (shout out to all of the people who came here from my social media).I could see myself doing all of these things for a living. That last phase of my life was so hard because when I decided to go with the flow and see what I was naturally drawn to. I was drawn to everything.

I first had to accept that I simply cannot box myself in. It just won't work. With that being said, my next phase became me thinking about a way to incorporate all of my different passions into one space or idea where people can easily digest them and I can still operate with one overall career. I used to think that I was supposed to pick one passion, create a product or service from it, and sell that product or service to make money. Boom. Career. However, along my journey, I've come to realize that I needed to create the kind of career where the entirety of me can exist. Not just a compartmentalized fragment of my identity. Thus, NyaJelisa.com was born.